DeMario Jackson Had Suicidal Thoughts After 'Bachelor in Paradise' Scandal

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Now that the truth about the Bachelor in Paradise sex scandal has come out, we can't help but feel for DeMario Jackson. It was definitely a rough time for him, but even we didn't know how badly it affected him.


Even though multiple investigations showed that there was no sexual misconduct between himself and Corinne Olympios on the set of Bachelor in Paradise last June, it wasn't until we heard from his former costars on the show this week that we realized how completely unfounded the claims were.

After two days of filming earlier this summer, production was shut down on BIP when a crew member reported that Corinne may not have been cognizant enough to consent to oral sex from DeMario in the hot tub. Corinne then labeled herself a "victim," while DeMario maintained that his character had been "assassinated."

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Now that we've seen footage from earlier in the day when the alleged incident occurred, in which Corinne was all over DeMario and even pulling him into the pool herself, and heard from their former castmates, he says that he feels "vindicated."

The 30-year-old told Entertainment Tonight that he felt he'd "been through hell" in the couple of months since this all transpired. He confessed that he felt "suicidal, but not like the suicidal that you might think." He explained, "I never thought, 'Oh, I'm gonna kill myself,' but it crossed my mind."

He shared that he lost 25 pounds over all the stress, and talked to a therapist to help navigate through his emotions over the whole thing. He felt particularly bad about his mother, who didn't sign up for any of this. "I remember just talking to my mom, like, 'My life's over. Like, I don't even want to live anymore.' And she, like, lost it," he said.

DeMario was glad that the network shared some footage from the day their hookup occurred, and understood why they couldn't show more. "I feel like they rolled enough of the tape," he said. "You can't show too much, because that's gonna disrespect Corinne and I, and I just feel like it wouldn't be the best or the classiest thing to do. But, they showed enough."

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He continued, "The public, they need to see something. I think they just needed to see [that] she's lucid. I'm lucid. We're swimming around. We're having fun. We're friends. It wasn't like I'm some predator who was at the bar waiting for the girl to get extremely drunk, then I'm like, 'Oops! Let me pounce on her.' No, it was very mutual and, in fact, she was a little bit of the aggressor in it, and I love how they painted the picture and the story of us actually talking, mingling, getting to know each other."

Talking about his mom and how awful he felt putting her through all the drama, he confessed, "I signed up for this reality. I feel guilty, because my mom didn't sign up for this, and she's been getting harassed, people tweeting at her, on her Instagram saying, 'Your son's a rapist,'" he said. "That was the part I was most sad about. I feel like I created this for my family, in a sense, by being a little reckless. And I just want to say I'm sorry to them."

I think we can safely say that he's glad this is over, and hopefully he'll be able to put it behind him.


If you or someone you know has expressed suicidal thoughts, please let them know they are not alone. Text START to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741, or visit the Suicide Prevention Resource Center at

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