Catelynn Baltierra Opens Up About Mental Health, Mom Guilt & Plans for More Kids

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Who else is more than ready for the premiere of the new season of Teen Mom OG? We sure are, and that's why we couldn't have been more thrilled to have the chance to sit down and chat with the stars of the show at the MTV offices in New York City. And wow -- we got such a great update from Catelynn Baltierra.

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From how she is still managing her depression to her plans to expand her family, we loved every minute of talking to her.

On their big move into a new house ...

"We still own the old house, because we couldn't part with it, but we really like our new house. We're in there now. It's just brighter, and open, and has more sunlight. The old house was a Victorian and really cut off, so it was always dark."

On our seeing Tyler struggle with anxiety this season ...

"He was [struggling] in the beginning of the season for sure. But he's super self-aware, so he jumped right into going to talk to his therapist. He's out of it now though. He's doing really good."

On how things are going with Brandon and Teresa, and whether they'll have the chance to see Carly soon ...

"Right now we're in the works of trying to set up something for the summer. Their lives are busy ... they have two kids, I have a kid, and life just gets crazy. And we live super far away. We're trying to schedule something for sure, but we talk on the phone, and I send her pictures of Nova, so we definitely keep in contact."

On what we can expect to see this season ...

"You'll see us getting into the house, Tyler overcoming his depression, Nova becoming bigger and potty trained and talking and being crazy. And I think people will see me (I hope they show it ...) and the couple of panic attacks I have had since I've been home, but how I worked through them way better. I want people to see how far I've come with it, and how it used to cripple me. I've learned coping mechanisms, and now I can work through it easily, and it's gone in like 10 minutes."

On how important it is to talk about mental health on a public platform ...

"I think it's a HUGE thing that we talk about mental illness. I feel like there's not enough help out there. When I needed to go to therapy, my insurance wouldn't even cover it, and I had to pay $50,000 for treatment. It's not cheap! It's so hard for people to get treatment. I wish people would understand there needs to be help, or free counseling places if people don't have insurance, or places to help people get on insurance. There really is nothing like that out there for us. If I didn't have insurance, I'd be paying like $120 a month just for my prescription that helps me live on a day-to-day basis. S*** needs to change."

On whether there is a stigma for moms who have mental health issues ...

"I know when I was going through my anxiety and depression, I felt so guilty about being a bad mom. I felt so awful about having to go away. I used to ask Tyler, 'Why do I have to go away and leave my daughter because I'm so f***ed up?' I think what I would say to moms, because I learned this when I was there, if you are going through anxiety/depression, if you feel like something is different, it's okay to not be okay sometimes. It's okay that in order to feel happy, you have to feel sad. Feel your emotions and talk about them. If you can't go to a counselor, talk to somebody you trust, or try to find some kind of resources. You're not crazy, you're not alone, it will go away. I'm a year out of my postpartum, and I never thought it would go away, but it did. I feel way better." 

On an important lesson she learned in treatment ...

"When I felt like such a bad mom, but was in that treatment center with all of those other girls, they would tell me, you might feel awful now, but it's only a month out of your life, and you're going to be a way better mom when you get home, because you took the time to take care of yourself, and that's the most important thing. Happy moms and dads make happy children."

On how she deals with others who say negative things about her as a mom ...

"I use the block button, a lot. I've always been a positive person, but if I scroll on my feed and all I see is negative things, then all I'm gonna think is negative things. You say one negative thing to me, your ass is getting blocked! So now, no matter what I post, I scroll through my Twitter feed, and it's all supportive. I don't read any comments on Instagram, or I turn commenting off."

On whether she plans to add to her family ...

"Maybe within like a year. I don't want it to be too far away, but I still have a lot of work to do on the whole postpartum depression thing, so that scares me. It holds me back a lot. If I never went through that, I'd probably be expecting right now. But that holds me back in a lot of ways, and I think a lot of moms can probably relate to that. You get really scared to ever have a baby again. And it shouldn't be that way. You should be excited and happy. Mental illness sucks!"

On how she feels about her fans ...

"I love my fans. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have a show. They support me, and they bring me up when I am down. I love every single one of them, no matter the color, the sex ... nothing. When I'm having a bad day, I scroll through my stuff, and they make me happy. They have been so supportive and awesome."

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