30 Things You'll Miss About Your Mother After She's Gone

beachSince my mother died from breast cancer in 2010, one day after I got married, I've, needless to say, missed her. But I've found that it isn't the big moments -- holidays, birthdays, even the birth of my daughter -- when I miss her the most. It's the small ones. The ones that I, probably like you, never gave a thought about when she was alive and not spending 20+ hours a day on her bed or the couch. And even more so, I miss the moments we never had.

If and when you lose your mother, these are the things you'll miss about her most.

1. You'll miss the delight your mother would have derived from Pinterest. Did Pinterest even exist in 2010? She never understood Facebook, but Pinterest? Pinterest she'd love.

2. You'll miss telling your mother about the Aebleskivers recipe you found on Pinterest. You're not sure if she ever heard of Aebleskivers, but they sound like something she'd like. There's no one else in your family who would care about the recipe. They'd eat them but wouldn't wonder what's in them. The two of you could spend a lazy afternoon making Aebleskivers at your house (bought a house, Mom!) while your daughter (had a baby, Mom!) plays in the background.

3. You'll miss buying your mom a really nice present after going to Paris. If anyone would appreciate an Hermes scarf, it would be her. And if anyone deserved an Hermes scarf, it was her. And you'll miss seeing how cool and chic she'd feel wearing it in front of her friends, saying, "My daughter bought this for me in Paris."

4. You'll miss going out to lunch with your mother, and then maybe browsing around Anthropologie or Williams-Sonoma, like you see so many women and their mothers doing. And you'd never look at an older daughter rolling her eyes at her mother and want to smack her, because you just might do that, too. 

5. You'll miss asking your mother questions about your childhood after you've had a baby of your own. Did I do that when I was little? Because, while your father has always been hands-on, he doesn't remember shit.

6. You'll miss hearing your mother tell you, in her own way, that you're a good mom. Because no matter how much you doubt yourself, you know that you are. And it's a shame that your mom can't see that after how impatient you'd always been.

7. You'll miss getting to look at your mother differently after you've had a child of your own. So, that's how much you loved me! Why didn't you just say so!

8. You'll miss getting to enjoy the really good mother-daughter relationship. The post-high school-fighting; post-college-it's-pronounced-Antverp, Mom relationship. The relationship where you're just two adults, and it's not weird if you're more friends than mother/daughter.

9. You'll miss hearing her tell you that, even though it's 14 degrees out, she likes leaving the windows of her car open. How dare you assume she was smoking?!

10. You'll miss having your mother dealing with your sister's shit instead of you, because, although you love her, you've got enough responsibilities.

11. You'll miss having someone, the only person, clean up completely after a meal -- and do it right. When was the last time you didn't have 56 pots, pans, and dishes to do after eating at your house, your father's, or sister's?

12. You'll miss telling her that she can shave her face. Yes, shave her face. When she told you she was embarrassed about the light fuzz that was appearing on her face due to the medicine, all you could say was, "I didn't even notice." (You did.) You've since learned that you can shave the hair on your face, and it's fine. It doesn't grow back stubbly, because that's not the kind of hair it is. That would have come in handy.

13. You'll miss having someone you trust (really trust) watch your child for no cost whatsoever. And when you came home from work, your house would be cleaner than when you left.

14. You'll miss buying her Aesop hand soaps and lotions for Christmas. That's what you would have gotten her this year. Anyone else would wonder why on earth you're buying that for them, but not your mom. She'd get it. She was the only person in your family who shared an interest in stupid fine goods like that.

15. You'll miss her sarcastic humor, especially hearing her say things like, "I've got a lot of problems and that ain't one of them" when she found out your sister's friend was locked out of her apartment after a night of drinking.

16. You'll miss her emails. All those annoying forwards.

17. You'll miss seeing her handwriting in cards, notes, and lists. It was the most perfect, neat handwriting anyone had ever seen. Your father's, though endearing, is illegible and too masculine for Easter.

18. You'll miss hearing her call you "Nic," "Nikki," or "Baby Girl" as if those were the names written on your birth certificate. 

19. You'll miss her freakishly strong, long nails that, no matter how sick she got, no matter how much everything else on her body deteriorated, stayed weirdly in tact.

20. You'll miss seeing the bravery she pulled from god knows where when told, in so many words, "It's bad. It's really bad." And you'll miss her trying to make the conversation all about the banal things going on in your life while walking through the waiting room, in hopes that you didn't notice.

21. You'll miss her picking out a wedding venue that she'll only see once. And not when you got married. 

22. You'll miss her criticizing you to your face, but bragging about you behind your back.

23. You'll miss hearing her describe an actor, like Hugh Jackman, as "handsome."

24. You'll miss her squinting her eyes and shaking her head back forth, trying to follow your and your sister's conversation when the two of you were talking really fast.

25. You'll miss getting to appreciate her a little more when something bad happens to someone else, not you.

26. You'll miss the insanely detailed pre-GPS driving directions she wrote out for you, explaining how to get to and from your college.

27. You'll miss her telling you that she's excited your hair won't be frizzy after you move to California, even though she's heartbroken over it.

28. You'll miss the little back and forths you'd have about parenting, because you know she'd do things differently than you.

29. You'll miss seeing her ever use an iPhone. The last thing she had was a flip-phone, which, for some reason, makes her passing seem even longer ago.

30. You'll miss being able to write the very last text message you ever wrote to her -- which was written exactly like this: (I love you.) -- to a number that's still in service.

 

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adamat34 adamat34

My mother has never done any of these ........

Kings... KingsleysMommy

Adamat34...that's not the point. Obviously the writer has lost her mother. I know the feeling all too well. It will be 3years on January 28th my mom passed and while most did not apply to my mom, some did. I normally agree with the things you say/feel but for goodness sake, open your eyes. ūüėä A little compassion goes a long way. Nicole, I'm sorry for the loss of your mother. Most times, we are too late in realizing how important they are to us.

NicoleFW NicoleFW

Thanks, KingsleysMommy. I'm sorry for your loss, too.

Mrs.R... Mrs.Rodriguez09

Nicole Thank you for writing this. My name is also Nicole & I also lost my mother in 2010. This was a comforting read, to know I am not alone. I am so sorry for your loss.

nonmember avatar Jlw1403

This really hit home. I lost my mom 5 years ago. It really is the little things you miss most. For me one of the things I miss most is the smell of her perfume. I have a bottle, but it just does smell quite the same when it's not on her.

nonmember avatar Jlw1403

And I am so so sorry for your loss.

amazz... amazzonia

I know how you feel, and unfortunately, no matter what perople tells you, until you loose your mother you don't understand...I think from a child point of view, even when the child has become an adult, its mother will always be immortal to its eye, so no matter how ill she gets a part of you will always think that nothing wrong can happens to her....and when it does your mind starts thinking all the weirdest questions, all the things you missed and that you are going to miss with her...the thing I miss most is not having anyone to share my things with, she was the only one who appreciated me, in a profound way, I have a lovely husband and daughter, but with my mom we were always in sync, we would get excited for the same things...the truth is when a mother dies a little part of you dies with her, after all you are a part of her

2baby... 2babymomma

I am seriously crying right now. My mother will be gone 12 years this April. The things that really get me are when I'm watching a show that we used to watch and look at the date it was made and think that she never saw that episode cuz it was after 2002. And I look at my babies and think how they never will know her and how she would have loved them so much.

nonmember avatar Jaide

I'm so sorry for you loss, Nicole. That brought tears to my eyes. My mom and I have had a difficult relationship over the years, but since getting married and having my first child in the last 2 years, we've become very close and I am so thankful for it. I pray she's around for a long time. I lost my dad this past July to suicide stemming from drug addiction and mental illness and even though we weren't close, it was difficult realizing that one of the people who brought me into this world weren't here anymore.

nonmember avatar Jennifer

My mom and I don't see eye to eye on Alot of things. Reading this just made me realize that I would be lost without her. Thank you

So sorry for your loss

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