The Grief of Miscarriage is a Family Affair

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grieving womanAnn Romney’s revelation on how a miscarriage devestated her youngest child is apparently shedding light on the impact such a loss can have on the entire family. But anyone who has ever had the misfortune of having a miscarriage knows all too well the devastating impact that the loss has on every single person in that family. I certainly didn't need Ann Romney to help me figure that one out. I know from my own experience.

I find it kind of condescending that just because someone famous says this, its suddenly a revelation. Is this loss supposed to make the Romney family more relatable? I'm sorry for the Romney family's loss because I know how world shattering it truly is but how is this relevant in casual conversation or interview?

Explaining our miscarriage to our little girls was one of the hardest things that I ever had to do in my life. My children had been begging for a little brother or sister for years. When we found out we were pregnant, it was supposed to be a surprise revealed at my youngest daughter's 5th birthday party. I lost our baby 3 weeks before we were going to tell everyone in the family.

We had to tell our children that we miscarried because I had to have a D & E and my Mother-in-law was going to have to watch them while I went to the hospital. I still wasn’t convinced that I wanted to tell them but my husband felt it was best to tell them or they would keep harassing me for a sibling, only adding salt to the already gaping wound of the loss. I knew he was right. But I didn’t want to be the one who told them. I felt like I was already the one who had failed them.

It's devastating to have to tell your children that you almost gave them what they wanted but you lost it. I was sad about the baby and felt like a failure to the other two. I was suffocating from the heaviness in the air. I was enveloped by my own pain it was almost impossible for me to help my daughters deal with their grief so I let my husband handle the bulk of it.

I hugged them and kissed them and let them know they could ask me anything (even though my youngest was breaking my heart on a daily basis). I remember as I lay in bed cuddled closely with my girls, my 5-year-old lay in bed crying, kissing my stomach and asking me why I hadn’t told her about the baby sooner because then maybe she could have loved the baby more and the baby would have lived. What could I do but stifle my own tears and hold her tight?

Or the morning of my surgery, as I was trying to stay composed before heading out to the hospital for my D & E, my 5 –year-old kissed me through sobs and begged me to get a photo of her baby then she kissed my belly and whispered to her baby brother or sister inside me, “Goodbye, I love you.” I won’t lie. These simple sweet gestures of hers were enough to almost kill me in my fragile state. I think my heart shattered into a million pieces a thousand times over in those first few days. I just wanted to be numb to it all.

Through all this, I wasn't as involved in making sure my kids were okay as I feel now like I should have been. But when you're going through a miscarriage, it's hard to see past your own pain and so it was hard for me to try to make someone else feel better. I tried my best to comfort my children, but my whole world was falling apart.

I don’t need Anne Romney to tell me that. I found this all out on my own, the hard way.

Image via Jingkay 2008 /Flickr

1st trimester, miscarriage & loss


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Wow. I'm not sure what to say. You find Ann Romney condescending? How do you find yourself? She shared a very painful experience in her life and you say these mean things about her and then you go on to explain your loss and that's different? How?

We all experience loss in our lives and I feel it brings us closer together to talk about them. I'm very sorry you lost a child. I lost my first grandson to a miscarriage. It's really too bad you couldn't bond with others that have had the same experience.

This is a very mean and shallow post to a fellow woman who lost the same thing you did and shared it the same way you did. Shame on you. 


Flori... Floridamom96

You took the words right out of my mouth, JAFE.

bb510 bb510

Maybe you should shut up about your miscarriage if you don't want Ann Romney talking about hers. After having two in the last year I totally understand the pain involved. She should be allowed to speak of her lost child anywhere and anyhow she likes.


I agree JAFE, I am really confused by this post.   Have partisan politics come this far? Really?

First, let me say how very sorry I am for your family's loss.  But I think Ann said what she did for a couple of reasons:  to help others out there that may have also gone through this, and to possibly help herself heal by expressing herself.  Are those not the same reasons you have blogged about this several times?

I'm sorry for both of your losses, regardless of what your political views are.

SaraJ... SaraJamesHigh

isn't it a dnc not d&e?????

Torra... TorranceMom

Deborah, you're a real piece of work.

SoJaided SoJaided

Ann Romney shared her experience to help her husband's campaign. So noble :/ Obviously this post was hypocritical in the way that she criticized Romney than shared her own story, but don't be ignorant and think Ann Romney didn't do what she did to help their agenda.

Venae Venae

I guess famous people aren't allowed to talk about their suffering?  Then will someone tell Jenny McCarthy to shut the hell up about her autistic kid?


So in other words Ann Romney's pain isn't important SoJaided? What kind of a human being are you? This has nothing to do with politics and has everything to do with human kindness and understanding.

I can't believe people have become like this. Is this politics? Is this what you people have turned into? God. That's so sad.

NatAndCo NatAndCo

I am sorry for your loss, i know how painful that can be... But i hate, HATE, the fact that you exploited it to attack Ann Romney. I don't care if you're a Republican, democrat, or whatever, she's still a woman and a mother who suffered an incredible loss.

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