Me? I read those gems too, but I also read Baby Love by Rebecca Walker.
When I was pregnant -- and single -- I was working at First magazine. Something super-cool about working at a magazine are the free books galore. One day, I was picking through the giveaway bin and I saw the word "baby," looked down at my baby bump, picked up the book, and slipped it into my purse.
Later on that evening when I was alone in my apartment, I opened the book and didn't put it down until I truly had to turn off the light and get some sleep. Written in diary format, Walker describes the journey from discovering she was pregnant to bringing her son home in vivid detail -- details so strong, you feel you're right there with her for those nine months.
I related so deeply to this book because there was a struggle -- I myself was enduring a struggle of sorts -- single, pregnant, excited then scared, then both. Walker's tension roots from her estranged mother who challenged her right to parent and ultimately removed herself from Walker's life. So, as Walker prepared to be a mother, she had no mother to turn to. As I prepared to become a mother, I had no partner to turn to -- and I knew my son would have no father to turn to -- I was sad and angry. It was an empowering time, though -- it really was.
People often describe pregnancy as a joyous, exciting time and I do agree that my pregnancy was just that, but it was also tinted with anxiety and fear that I wasn't enough, nor could I be enough. Taking this journey with Walker in Baby Love made me feel connected to hope -- and it is this hope that carries me from one day to the next.
Baby Love, Amazon.com -- I laughed, I cried, I excited ... I found my way.
What did you read when you were pregnant?