'Six Pack Mom' Sarah Stage Admits She Saw Her Second Baby as an 'Intruder'


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Thirty-three-year-old model Sarah Stage is famous for having tiny baby bumps. But it's a recent letter to her 3-year-old that has people talking these days. In an Instagram post, Stage writes about the ways their family is changing due to the recent addition of a new baby and admits how hard it's been to accept their new family dynamics, even going so far as to refer to her new baby as an "intruder."


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"As I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship, suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited," her letter begins. "I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you?"

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Sarah explores feelings that not many are ready to admit they have: the feelings of uncertainty she had about having a new baby and what it's been like to watch her young son grapple with the fact that he has to share his mother as well. "Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch you having to share me as you've never done before," she writes. "I hear you telling me in your own way, 'Please love only me.' And I hear myself telling you in mine, 'I can't,' knowing, in fact, that I never can again."

"I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared," she adds. "A relationship we can never quite have again."

Despite her controversial admission, the conflicted mom goes on to discuss the way she gradually came to view her new baby in a different light. "But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being. And feeling almost guilty. I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him -- as though I am betraying you," Sarah expressed to her son.

It isn't long before Sarah's feelings of guilt seem to fade. With the passing of each day she learns to accept and adapt to the layout of her growing family more and more. "The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast. But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just us two."


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She explains that as she watches her sons grow and bond, she realizes she shouldn't feel guilty for "forcing" her son to share her with someone else. "I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you, I've given something to you," she writes. "I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong."

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In viewing her child as less of an intruder and more of an integral part of her growing family, Sarah has a realization that many moms have about her love for her kids. "Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you -- only differently," she writes, "And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll never share my love. There's enough of that for both of you."


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