“Sex Confessions” is a series featuring your naughtiest bedroom secrets and fantasies. Some will sound familiar, others may give you ideas, some will turn you on, and some are dark and twisted. You might want to sit down for this.
Today's sex confession comes from Sandra*, a 30-something divorcee who has a secret she's kept for years. She had sex with her boyfriend's father when she was 22 years old. She recently told some close friends who offered her advice on how to let go of the guilt. Read on to hear more of her confession in her own words.
I'm not proud of the fact that I responded to my boyfriend's father's advances. I'm also not going to lie and say I didn't lead him on. I did. Very much and often. I was young and not very smart. The thing that is the worst is that I was in love with my boyfriend at that time. We are no longer together and not because he found out that I had sex with his dad. It was my guilt. I couldn't handle the lie anymore. And I've been living with it for 10 years.
I regret it. But there is nothing I can do to take it back. If I could, I would. Like I said, I loved him -- my boyfriend, not his dad. And I haven't been able to have a good relationship since. I ended up meeting and marrying another man and yet I never stopped loving my ex. I got divorced after just two years of marriage. I've never tried to get back together with him because I knew in order to have a good relationship I would have to tell him about what happened with me and his dad. And to be honest, I would prefer it if I never saw his father again. I can't blame him though. It's just as much my fault as it was his, if not more.
I feel like confessing this will help me. One more step in putting it behind me so I can move on. And in case you were wondering, it wasn't worth it. That one moment ruined my life.
What advice would you give Sandra to try to overcome this?
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