We've heard plenty about the Zimmerman trial from Juror B37, the juror who defended Zimmerman to Anderson Cooper. Four other jurors wasted no time in distancing themselves from those statements, and now one of them is going public. Juror B29, who is calling herself Maddy, told Robin Roberts she believes Zimmerman got away with murder. I think it's worth noting that she's also the only non-white member of the jury.
Maddy says she feels she owes Trayvon Martin's family an apology. But she also feels she and the other jurors had no other choice. "You can't put the man in jail even though in our hearts we felt he was guilty. But we had to grab our hearts and put it aside and look at the evidence." She says she was the last holdout. "I fought to the end," she says. But she did not want the trial to end in a hung jury.
Maddy's conscience is haunting her, especially as a mother. "I felt like I let a lot of people down, and I'm thinking to myself, 'Did I go the right way? Did I go the wrong way?'" But here's what the verdict came down to for Maddy. She says, "If a person kills someone, then you get charged for it. But as the law was read to me, if you have no proof that he killed him intentionally, you can't say he's guilty." Maddy didn't think the evidence proved beyond a reasonable doubt that Zimmerman intended to kill Martin.
I think I've mentioned this in another post -- having served on a jury myself, I know what it's like to feel like someone definitely did something wrong and yet know that you can't convict based on the evidence and the laws that are written. I feel for Maddy. It weighs on you to walk out of that courtroom knowing that in some way, you've let someone get away with something. Worse, that person you failed to convict now feels vindicated, and they are free to commit a similar act again, maybe even something worse.
Maddy has one consolation. "George Zimmerman got away with murder, but you can't get away from God. And at the end of the day, he's going to have a lot of questions and answers he has to deal with." I guess there's that, if you believe in God and his judgment. Otherwise, there's also the judgment of the public. We're split on the Zimmerman case. He has his supporters. But I still wouldn't want to be him right now. He's not really free, no matter what the jury decided.
Have you ever served jury duty in criminal court?
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