Yoselyn Ortega, the nanny accused in the brutal slaying of Lucia and Leo Krim, 6 and 2, last year in their Upper West Side Manhattan apartment, claims that she doesn't remember killing the children and that when she woke from her coma after stabbing herself, she was hearing voices saying they would kill people.
Though Ortega has been found competent to stand trial by two court-appointed psychiatrists back in April, new ones from the defense are saying that she is too depressed, psychotic, and brain damaged to be fit for trial. Whatever the outcome is, the reality is we may never really have the answers we have all wanted since the horrifying day little Lucia and Leo Krim were stabbed to death in their bathtub.
There isn't a parent out there who couldn't relate to the screams and cries of their mother Marina and who didn't relate on some level to trusting another person only to have them betray that trust in the worst way.
Did Marina Krim simply trust a psychopath with her children? Did she miss signs that were there all along? It's unclear, though from what it sounds like, she may have been depressed for months and then finally broke that night.
All of this means we may never really see justice for those poor children. This may simply be a case where there is no logical motive and no explanation for the horror she inflicted. She may truly have just been crazed with depression and hallucinations and done the unthinkable in that moment.
As a parent, it's hard to know what is worse. Is it worse to have a person who knowingly betrayed your trust and hurt the children you trusted to them? Or is it worse to have hired someone who simply hid their insanity from you and had no real "motive" that would make sense for harming them?
In the end, both beautiful children are gone and there is nothing anyone could say or do that would bring them back. Her motive probably doesn't matter terribly to the grieving parents, though it may mean the difference between being angry forever and being able to let go of some of that anger. A psychotic person doesn't know what they're doing.
It's hard to say what the truth is and the reality is, the truth in this story might never be told. My heart will always go out to the Krims for their unimaginable loss and their unreal strength in dealing with it. They are inspirational even in their profound grief.
As for Ortega, let's just hope she gets what is coming to her.
Do you think the nanny is faking psychosis?
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