It all hinges on Yoselyn Ortega now. As far as we know this morning, she's still in a coma. Until the New York nanny who is the prime suspect in the stabbing of two kids to death wakes and talks to police, there's only painful, excruciating waiting. Even when the answers come, and I pray they do, they still won't be good enough because two beautiful, innocent children still lie dead. Nothing can truly explain or justify the crime scene that Marina Krim walked into on Thursday afternoon, it can only fill in some of the blanks of what we already know and feel in our hearts -- that anyone with no history of violence, drug abuse or mental illness who could murder two children in cold blood had to have snapped.
Until Ortega talks, we can only look for answers in the people who knew the 50-year-old nanny best and saw her the most. And the sketchy portrait they are drawing leaves us just as baffled and horrified as when we didn't know anything about her at all.
Several newspapers have interviewed neighbors of the Krims' who would see the nanny with the kids, Ortega's family members and neighbors, the Krims kids' grandmother, and various others. This is what we know of Ortega so far:
She was becoming unhinged. People saw it, as much as weeks ago, when she'd ask a friend to pray that a woman who she sold jewelry to as a side business would pay her what she owed her. Several people acknowledged that the recent money problems she was having were wearing on her, and she even started seeing a psychologist.
Ortega frequently looked sad, distant, would not return her usual smile. She had lost a lot of weight.
The description I just painted probably describes a million other people in the world, none or most of whom do not deal with their problems by pulling out a knife and brutally slaying children who they supposedly loved, before trying to end their own life.
There is something in the details of how Marina Krim found her children that I keep going back to, that keeps stopping me. It's the point where she enters the bathroom and finds her kids in the tub, and Ortega is supposedly in the act of running the knife against her own throat. The timing of that is uncanny. What are the odds that that was just a coincidence? Ortega must have heard Krim enter the apartment -- both times (the first time she entered after returning from her 3-year-olds' swim class all was dark and she left to ask the doorman if the nanny and kids had gone out).
Is it possible she wanted Krim to catch her in the act? In which case, it's more a sick cry for attention than a legitimate attempt to end her own life.
But then, who in their right mind would want to live after committing such an atrocity against children, against a loving family. The only coherent thing about this entire tragedy is that nothing continues to make sense.
Does this picture of the nanny really point to someone who was losing it? Was something else going on here?
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