My Extreme Home Decorating Fear Has Left Me Paralyzed

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windowThe thing is, it shouldn't be a problem. But it is ... in the scheme of first-world, non-imminent problems mind you, but still it's driving me crazy. "It" is my ridiculous inablity to decorate my house.

Not decorate well, just decorate as in choose a few paint colors, hang some curtains, and put together a "big girl" room for my nearly 4-year-old daughter who is still sleeping in her nursery (and in her crib -- if truth be told). But in the five years since we bought this house, I've yet to make any significant changes to make it our own, and thus we live in a world of beige. It's a lovely shade of beige, but still, we're not a beige kind of family.

Oh, there are pictures on the walls, but only where there were nails left by the previous owners. Even driving in a new nail gives me all sorts of anxiety. The curtain rod in my son's room has curtain rings hanging desperately bare because I haven't been able to commit to any kind of draperies. Thankfully there are some blinds for privacy, but still you'd think in five years, I might be able to choose some.

It's not a problem of money as I actually have a designated budget for this task that we've set aside. It's not a huge budget, but it could definitely get me started. I just can't seem to get started. And it's not nearly big enough for me to bring in a designer to just do the work for me.

Besides I SHOULD be good at this. I'm a fantastic shopper (seriously, it's one of my best talents), and I like to think I have a great eye for style. I was once an art major with dreams of being a fashion designer for crying out loud. I know what I like -- modern, clean, and a bit edgy -- and I'm typically a quite decisive person. But there's something about my house that leaves my wheels spinning as my head spins with options.

Case in point: I have an antique bed for my daughter that was gifted to us by a relative, and it's beyond lovely. But the headboard and footboard need to be recovered. I can't even tell you how many fabric samples I've perused, and yet still she sleeps in her crib because I just can't decide what to do with this room. Because I also have to consider the curtains, and a rug, and bedding, and oh ... she's going to be in the damn crib forever.

I spend hours poring over home decorating magazines, reading blogs, and marveling over websites filled with wonderful rooms, but when it comes to actually making the decisions, I can't commit. And maybe that's the problem -- my fear of commitment to something so big and permanent.

A new pair of shoes isn't something I have to stare at every day. They signify more of a whim, or a fad, or a mistake (a much cheaper mistake than a new couch in most cases). But my home -- my home is me. My home is my family. My home is what I imagine as the backdrop to my children's childhood memories, and I want it to be just right. I want them to look back with lovely images surrounding them.

Of course, I know it's not the tangible things in our house that any of us will remember the most, but rather the love and good times. And I know that if I NEVER decorate my house and we forever stare at beige walls, life will go on just fine.  Still I'd like my children not to look back and wonder why I never at least took down those damn empty curtain rings.

Do you have a problem with home decorating?


Image via Julie Ryan Evans


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abra819 abra819

lol...girl, get on pinterest!! 

MsRkg MsRkg

I guess I don't understand this fear. Paint the room a color , and if you don't like it repaint it another color. Painting a room is not a permnant decision that you can never ever change again. Hang a curtain up and if doesn't look good, then take it down. It doens't need to stay there forever. Same for a picture. And a lamp. and everything else. You can always remove it and bring it back to it's original state if you don't like it.

ilove... ilovemy4kiddies

LOL, its only paint. Walls can be repainted if you don't like the shade or color. I started painting a color on the walls a few years back and after one wall was done I hated it and went and picked a different color. Thankfully its cheap enough to be able to do that. Fabric on the other hand isn't as cheap. I would pick that first, then choose my wall color and other accessories. Have fun with it, for the most part you can change the things you end up not liking.

linzemae linzemae

oh hell, we painted 4 rooms of our house the day we closed on it! and ive since (in 5 years) repainted 4 of them! i love to paint though and make changes. 

Nicol... NicoleMarie1211

I'm the same way! I keep thinking I'll make "the wrong choice". ugh.


Bruic... Bruickson

I love decorating my house! Just stick with the beige walls and use accessories for a pop of color. When you get tired of that color then all you'll have to do is change small things. But if you are super tired of the beige go with another neutral wall color like an earthy gray. And definitely get on pinterest!

Kaela Wheeler

Find a bossy friend with similar taste to yours and go shopping. Now! Sales are never going to be better than they are right now so tell yourself you have to commit now because you a) can get the best deals right now and b) bossy friend is only going to be with you for that one day. Good luck :)

Kaela Wheeler

Can you tell I'm a bossy friend? :)

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