Amber Portwood Makes Heartbreaking & Scary Confession

Amber Portwood

Just when you thought Amber Portwood was finally back on track with her new life, her latest revelation proves that she has a long road to recovery ahead of her. I mean, it's so bad you can't help but ache for this girl.

The former Teen Mom star admits that she’s having a hard time staying off drugs now that she’s no longer behind bars -- and that everyday temptations are making her life a living hell.

In a new interview with Radar Online, the former reality television star gives a heartbreaking account of her day-to-day life in her new book, Never Too Late. Portwood says that even though she went through 500 hours of rehab while in prison, she still has a hard time trying to fight the evil voice inside her head that tells her to go back to her old ways:

The first day I was out ... it’s whenever things are overwhelming for me, or any sort of emotion -- sadness, depression, anything -- it is very easy to go back to doing drugs because you don’t want to feel that way. You just have to stay strong and remember what you’re doing and move forward.

What’s even worse is that Portwood knows she needs help, but she doesn’t have enough strength to seek professional help:

I’m not on any kind of medication. I’m kind of scared to go to a doctor. It is hard but the sad thing about it is that I probably do need to be on medication for my bipolar but I kind of messed that up to where, at this moment, I don’t feel I would be strong enough to go to a doctor. I’m just afraid.

While there’s no denying that this really sucks hard core for her, I can’t help but wonder: wouldn’t it be easier if she just got a regular job rather than detailing her struggles with a book deal? Something tells me that Amber Portwood is trying to stay in the limelight as a Teen Mom, but if she was really serious about getting her life back on track, she would forget about being a celebrity. There’s a huge difference between telling your story and using it to help other people that are in the same mess as she in. Girlfriend here needs to forget about making that MTV money and focus on getting her life back on track for her own good.

What do you think of Amber’s confessions and her struggles to stay clean? 

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nonmember avatar Jackie

It's a stretch to say she is putting her life "back" on track- more like putting together a track for her life to go on.
On the show we got a glimpse at her parents and can conclude that she came from humble beginnings. It didn't help that she had a kid at 12 and has no education. She does have a long road ahead of her- and it doesn't look good.

nonmember avatar ACS

At least she is being honest about her struggle and the temptations she is having instead of lying and telling everyone she is fine. I truly hope she overcomes.

nonmember avatar k.c.

Its hard to go from using drugs to stying completely clean and serene as they say. Im a member of many narcotics anonymous groups in my local area and not only do I havea sponsor I have what they call a grand sponsor. My sponsors, sponsor. I have been using drug and alchol since I was 12 and I am now 30 with 9 months clean after several attempts. Addiction is a real disease. Just like cancer or aids. It affects not only the user but everyone round them as well. Sometimes it is hard to ask for help amd it takes courage to do so. Instead of giving negative feedback everytime u hear somwthing from thia girl try aupporting her. Negativity or breeds negativity. Ahe has to find what works for her. Nothing shes going to so is going to please anyone else. Ahe cant get clean or stay clean bcuz u or anyone else wants her too. She HAS to do it for her otherwise its never going to happen. Try to b positive and if u cant then dont say anything. Something u mite post about her could b the one thing that makes her use and leads to her relapse and eventual death.

nonmember avatar leanne macrory-

Well said K.C . How brave of you to admit and talk about your situation. Amber does the same and she's slaughtered for it anywaying. Your right all the negative comments could tip her over the edge and she may think "stuff it i'll do it anyway because that's what people think and expect me to do it and fail" good luck with your recovery you can only do so much physically most of it is mental and you have to take it day by day and for everyday you stay clean is an achievement in it's self. U need to be proud of your self and i bet friends and family are proud of you.take care K.C. XxX

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