Just when you thought Amber Portwood was finally back on track with her new life, her latest revelation proves that she has a long road to recovery ahead of her. I mean, it's so bad you can't help but ache for this girl.
The former Teen Mom star admits that she’s having a hard time staying off drugs now that she’s no longer behind bars -- and that everyday temptations are making her life a living hell.
In a new interview with Radar Online, the former reality television star gives a heartbreaking account of her day-to-day life in her new book, Never Too Late. Portwood says that even though she went through 500 hours of rehab while in prison, she still has a hard time trying to fight the evil voice inside her head that tells her to go back to her old ways:
The first day I was out ... it’s whenever things are overwhelming for me, or any sort of emotion -- sadness, depression, anything -- it is very easy to go back to doing drugs because you don’t want to feel that way. You just have to stay strong and remember what you’re doing and move forward.
What’s even worse is that Portwood knows she needs help, but she doesn’t have enough strength to seek professional help:
I’m not on any kind of medication. I’m kind of scared to go to a doctor. It is hard but the sad thing about it is that I probably do need to be on medication for my bipolar but I kind of messed that up to where, at this moment, I don’t feel I would be strong enough to go to a doctor. I’m just afraid.
While there’s no denying that this really sucks hard core for her, I can’t help but wonder: wouldn’t it be easier if she just got a regular job rather than detailing her struggles with a book deal? Something tells me that Amber Portwood is trying to stay in the limelight as a Teen Mom, but if she was really serious about getting her life back on track, she would forget about being a celebrity. There’s a huge difference between telling your story and using it to help other people that are in the same mess as she in. Girlfriend here needs to forget about making that MTV money and focus on getting her life back on track for her own good.
What do you think of Amber’s confessions and her struggles to stay clean?
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