Philip Seymour Hoffman’s Last Moments Were Worse Than Anyone Knew

The tragedy of Philip Seymour Hoffman's death from what is presumed to be a drug overdose has gotten even more tragic. Reports say that the Oscar-winning actor appeared to be stocking up for a long heroin binge. According to police sources, his Manhattan apartment contained at least 70 bags of heroin, 5 prescription drugs, and bags of hypodermic needles. He was also allegedly well aware of what deep trouble he was in, reportedly predicting to a friend weeks before his death that if he didn't stop doing drugs, he was going to die.

Cops reportedly removed 70 baggies of pure heroin from Hoffman's apartment, 50 bags of which were unopened. One of the "brands" of heroin has been linked to 22 deaths in Philadelphia, reportedly because it is cut with an extremely powerful pain killer.

Hoffman was reportedly found with a needle in his arm and a burned spoon used for his last high nearby. The night before he was discovered dead, he spoke to his ex-girlfriend and his assistant around 9 p.m. Saturday night. He was found 11 a.m. Sunday morning, after failing to pick up his three kids with ex-girlfriend Mimi O'Donnell, who rumor has it had broken up with him over his using. No doubt it has been agony for this woman. She must love the father of her three kids -- but she also can't have him doing drugs around her children or being high around them.

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Some reports are saying he died that morning -- however, that would mean he was shooting up before he planned to pick up his kids. Unfortunately, such a scenario is not out of the realm of possibility. Many addicts are extremely good at hiding their addictions and even symptoms of being high. Case in point, neither his best friend, playwright David Katz, who discovered him dead, nor his assistant, nor the mother of his children knew he was this close to death. Katz told The New York Times:

I saw him last week, and he was clean and sober, his old self.

But there were definitely signs that all wasn't well, with him reportedly telling at least one friend that if he didn't kick his habit, he knew he would die. But friends were either helpless to stop him or didn't realize how deep he had gone off the wagon.

Like Cory Monteith, he did his last drugs alone -- and died alone.

Hoffman had been clean for more than 20 years, and for the last four had regularly attended AA. He also checked into rehab last year. It just goes to show you what a difficult demon drugs are to wrestle into submission.

I've seen a lot of comments from people who don't have compassion for him, and who say he "chose" to die from drugs. Very few "choose" die this way and spend their lives being the slave of a drug. If you think "choosing" what you do and don't do is so easy, take your favorite thing to do. Maybe it's check Facebook. Maybe it's watch TV. Maybe it's eat ice cream. Now don't do it for a month. See how "easy" it is.

If this is a lesson about anything, it's to not even start drugs. Do not try them. Don't think you'll be the one who can do it once and never again. Maybe you will be. Do you want to risk that you won't be?

Have you known anyone who has dealt with a drug problem?

 

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