Poor Khloe Kardashian ... Just when you thought she was moving on and stronger than ever without estranged husband Lamar Odom, sources say she's struggling emotionally and blaming herself for her "failed marriage."
Apparently a major factor triggering her pain is being in the house she shared with Lamar.
A so-called insider explains to HollywoodLife.com:
She hates that place so f**king much because in her mind, she failed. Can you believe she thinks she failed as a wife? She was crazy in love with Lamar and thinks she failed him because she couldn’t make him get off drugs.
Wow. It is truly heart-rending to think she actually believes this, because in actuality, from everything we've heard, she did nothing but stand by him until it was pretty much impossible to any longer. And yet, the source claims:
She thinks she was too hard on him and pushed him away when all she was trying to do was bring him closer when he was at his worst. She’ll never admit that, but it’s so true. It’s Khloe. It’s her fabric and it’s who she is. She really didn’t want to leave Lamar but she had to. She had to for her soul.
Ugh. As much as I don't want to buy this, I could actually see this being the case. And if it is, I hope Khloe realizes she can't feel guilt or shame or regret for simply doing what she had to do for self-preservation.
Maybe she's not there yet, but hopefully, she'll soon do something anyone contending with a split must do: Make peace with the past. At some point after a breakup, you just have to trust that you did the right thing ... That you did what you had to do. Because beating yourself up isn't going to make anything better. Dwelling on "coulda, shoulda, woulda" is pointless.
It sounds like nothing could be more true for Khloe. And if there's any truth to this buzz about where she is in the healing process, I feel like a little self-compassion could go a long way.
Have you ever blamed yourself unnecessarily for a relationship ending?