Gia AllemandIt was Gia Allemand's boyfriend, Ryan Anderson, who reportedly found the beautiful Bachelor star's body hanging in her New Orleans home Monday night. According to TMZ, he discovered her unconscious after an apparent suicide attempt by hanging and called 911 immediately. As we know, attempts to save her sadly failed, and earlier today she died.

Now the question is why. Why would a beautiful young woman who was adored by friends and family choose to take her own life?  There are reports Gia had been "extremely upset about a rocky relationship" with Anderson. But there's simply nothing I'm sure that could have prepared him for what he saw when he walked into that apartment. He has since released a statement that is painful to read.

I'm deeply grateful for all the love and support we have received from family, friends and fans. Gia was the most beautiful person I knew inside and out and she always smiled and made everyone else around her smile.

She had such an amazing impact on my life and anyone that knew her was blessed. All I have left is to cherish those memories we made together and help perpetuate the many values, faith and love that we shared.

I ache for all of her family, friends, and fans, but for him especially. I can't imagine how difficult it was to find her like that, and I imagine he'll never be able to erase that horrifying image from his mind. And no matter what kind of problems they may or may not have been having, it would be impossible for him not to feel some kind of guilt about what he could have differently, if he could have prevented it.

Of course what we know about suicide is there can be no blame. It's almost always a result of something much deeper than just one incident. It's usually a result of depression, mental illness, or other struggles. As British actor Stephen Fry said earlier this summer when talking about his own suicide attempt and why people commit suicide:

You may say, how can anybody be so stupid as to want to end it all? That's the point, there is no why – it's not the right question. There's no reason. If there were a reason for it, you could reason someone out of it.

Many thoughts and prayers to Anderson and all of Gia's loved ones.

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