Fiona Apple's Letter About Her Dying Dog Will Have You Bawling

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If you've ever loved a dog, be prepared to cry. Singer Fiona Apple is postponing a South American tour so she can stay home with her dying pooch, Janet, a pitbull she rescued from a life of being bait for attack dogs. Fiona wrote a long letter (hand written!) to her fans, in which she explained her decision with such heart, such poetry, and such doggone devotion, that I dare you to get through it without shedding a tear.

Fiona explained that she found her dog tied up in a park in Los Angeles, covered with bite marks and a rope around her neck. She wrote:

She was the one the dogfighters use to puff up the confidence of the contenders. She's almost 14 and I've never seen her start a fight, or bite, or even growl, so I can understand why they chose her for that awful role. She's a pacifist.

Fiona goes on to detail the close relationship she has with her dog, saying:

Janet has been the most consistent relationship of my adult life, and that is just a fact. We've lived in numerous houses, and jumped a few makeshift families, but it's always really been the two of us.

She slept in bed with me, her head on the pillow, and she accepted my hysterical, tearful face into her chest, with her paws around me, every time I was heartbroken, or spirit-broken, or just lost, and as years went by, she let me take the role of her child, as I fell asleep, with her chin resting above my head.

Anyone who has ever loved a pet can understand that bond. I do. My cat, Kitty, who passed away last year at 16, was literally the longest unbroken relationship of my life -- and that includes with my parents. That's the kind of love pets and people can share.

Fiona goes on to say that she doesn't want to be the "woman who puts career over love and friendship" which is why she is choosing to postpone her tour until she can escort Janet, who has Addison's disease, out of this world. She wants to stay home and "cook tilapia" for her fur child -- or wait, I guess she's the mom. Her family member anyway. She adds:

I know that she is coming close to point where she will stop being a dog, and instead, be part of everything. She’ll be in the wind, and in the soil, and the snow, and in me, wherever I go.

I've been a Fiona fan for a long time -- because of her beautiful music. But now I'm a fan for her even more beautiful soul.

Have you ever escorted a beloved pet out of this world?


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tuffy... tuffymama

I'm not reading this whole thing because it will make me sad. I'm so glad that poor dog was rescued by someone who loved her. My best dog ever is one I rescued from a deplorable situation. She'll be fourteen on Thanksgiving (yeah, I KNEW where she came from), and I don't know if she will keep on trucking much longer. We are just praying for her to make it through Christmas so my XH won't come undone.

Venae Venae

In 1998, my beloved 12 year old black Lab succumbed to a heart attack - she went so quickly.   I miss her to this day - the best dog in the world.  In 2001, we had to put our 4 year old kitty (rescued from an abandoned litter) down due to urinary disease that I didn't have $1000+ to fix.  In August, my 10 year old kitty (rescued after being found abandoned w/an embedded collar digging into his neck) died of cancer.  He died at home and I bawled the whole time he was going.  Last week, my sister's cat (she adopted after he started hanging around her apartment) died in my arms - he was at least 18 years old and died of old age.

I don't know what is worse - having them die naturally w/you or having to decide to take them to the vet.  The vet is less painful for them, but neither is any less painful for us.


Akash... AkashaGermaine

Well, you did warn me. Tears are streaming down my face. I've lost many well loved pets over the years but the hardest one was my horse. He was 29 when we had to have him put down. Only two weeks before he was great. But he developed a blanket sore while I was on vacation and just dropped weight like crazy. When I got back he looked to have lost 100 pounds and had developed gangrene in the sore. There was nothing the pet sitter could have done differently. My daughter learned ride on him and cried when we told her he had to go to heaven. I still look out into our pasture expecting to see him sometimes, and it's been nearly four years.

ivego... ivegotrhythm

If she ever has kids she will be an AWESOME mom!!

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