Amber Portwood is one sad, sad woman, and her interview from jail is going to do nothing to dispel that image. The first preview for the special is depressing, indeed.
It seems the only person who is coming to visit Amber, who is serving a five-year sentence for her opiate addiction, is her mother. Even Gary isn't coming and she says every time she expresses any anger, he hangs up on her.
But the most heartbreaking part of the preview is what she says about Leah. See below:
Leah has no idea where her mommy is. She has no idea that she can't see her because she isn't a free woman and she has no idea that her mom really WANTS to. For a 3-year-old that can only mean one thing: feeling abandoned.
It's hard to even imagine what Leah will be like now when she grows up. It's easy to forget that these are real people with real lives, but the fact is, Leah didn't choose any of this. She was born to this mom and dad and this situation.
Even just watching this preview, I can feel the panicked feelings Amber must experience. I can't even imagine being somewhere where I couldn't control how often I saw my children.
Mostly, though, my heart goes out to Leah. Amber is the only mom little Leah will ever get, and right now, she is a mess. I am sure all Leah would like is a mom who is honest and tells her the "facts." Sure, Leah might not get "jail." But she might understand that Amber can't control when she sees her. She might understand photos and letters and drawings and recordings and whatever else Amber can do.
We may view Amber and Leah and Gary and all of their drama as "entertainment," but it's not. This is their life. I hope this special is more about the ways people can help them recover than about our collective feelings of superiority over these people. This is not a gawk and laugh moment. This is truly sad.
Do you think Amber is right to do this interview?
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