POOL New/ReutersCasey Anthony's first interview since being acquitted of her toddler daughter Caylee's murder in 2011 was shocking, to say the least. But apparently, we had only heard half of it. Even more troubling revelations were made in the second part of her interview with the Associated Press, released today. For example, Anthony says she'd be "blessed" to have another baby, but she's not sure that she's "dumb enough" to live with the consequences.
First of all, if you've ever wondered whether or not Anthony misses Caylee (a particularly complicated question, if you believe she's guilty, which many do), the 30-year-old says the answer is yes: "She is still the central part of my life, the central part of my being, and always will be," she tells the AP.
Understandable (or, again, if you believe she's guilty, perplexing). But would Anthony ever consider having another child to fill the void left by Caylee's death? From what Anthony says, it's something that she's definitely thought about. Yet, concerns over her own notoriety are holding her back.
"If I am blessed enough to have another child -- if I'd be dumb enough to bring another kid into this world knowing that there'd be a potential that some jackass, their little snot-nosed kid would then say something mean to my kid -- I don't think I could live with that,” she said.
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Well. There's rather a lot to unpack about that comment, isn't there? It almost starts out like a press-ready sound bite -- the obligatory use of the term "blessed" -- but then it turns into a surprisingly bitter rant about a theoretical child teasing her theoretical child. Of course, this is a woman whose experience with the press hasn't been entirely positive, and who has quite possibly one of the most horrific reputations in history, so she might be a little oversensitive to the idea of getting picked on. But her tone seems to indicate that she still considers herself a victim in all of this.
She even mentioned it in the first part of the interview: "Cops believe other cops," she said. "Cops tend to victimize the victims ... Cops lie to people every day. I'm just one of the unfortunate idiots who admitted they lied. My dad was a cop, you can read into that what you want to."
Then, of course, there's the alarming fact that Anthony still claims to not know what happened to Caylee, because of mental "blanks" she's unable to fill in: "If I knew what actually happened, I'd be able to fill in those blanks," she said. "I've done enough research, I've done enough psychology seminars, I've been tested, I've gone to the psychological evaluations, talked about this to the point where I've been in a puddle and not able to talk about it for days afterwards.”
What it all comes down to, really, is that nothing Anthony said in this interview gives the impression that she's stable enough (never mind "dumb") to have another child. Maybe she murdered Caylee, maybe she didn't -- but she still lied to the police. She still entered a "hot body" competition and got a tattoo after Caylee allegedly went missing. And Caylee still wasn't reported missing for over a month.
As this case continues to haunt and upset us, we can only hope and pray that no child will ever have to suffer what Caylee went through again.