Stephanie Dennis

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Stephanie Dennis is an artist with a day job and has worked as a writer, marketer, and teacher. She currently lives with her husband and cat in Oakland, CA , where they are hard at work trying to get knocked up (taking fertility meds, harvesting eggs for retrieval, spending her life savings, and so on...). You can follow her IVF journey here on The Stir.

Sipping on:

Hot water. What can I say? It makes me happy.

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Pregnancy

Getting Pregnant … or Not

Posted by Stephanie Dennis
on Apr 28, 2010 at 3:00 PM

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Photo by Stephanie Dennis

The results came in last Saturday. I wish I could tell you that we're celebrating good news. That we received the longed-for phone call. But we didn't.

We were informed that the results were a BFN (big fat negative).

In spite of all that science, all those hormones, all those embryos placed just so, we're still right where we started (minus a chunk of change). Folks, I think the best way to put is that this f-ing sucks. 

That last week of the IVF cycle ... waiting for the results ... was hell. I have to put this in perspective. I realize it's not the same kind of hell as, say, a loved one being gravely ill. Or having some kind of debilitating condition befall you. Or living in a war-torn country. But as anyone trying to conceive (TTC) knows, it's its own special hell: A toxic cocktail of disappointment, fear, anger, bewilderment, envy, desperation, longing, and sadness. And the longer you've been at it, the stronger the mix.

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Getting Pregnant: The Final 4 … Embryos

Posted by Stephanie Dennis
on Apr 21, 2010 at 12:00 PM

embryos

We got a call early Tuesday morning with an update from our doctor. Out of the five fertilized eggs, four had developed into perfect embryos.

Once again, our doctor reassured us that four strong candidates was a good outcome. For women in my age group, it's routine to transfer five embryos in the hopes that even one will implant and grow. She advised us to transfer all four. We bet the farm ... we're all in. In a couple of hours, the final four would be home sweet home.

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Getting Pregnant: Egg Retrieval Time

Posted by Stephanie Dennis
on Apr 14, 2010 at 4:00 PM

Wow, it has been a busy week! Turns out my follicles were growing at quite a clip, and I was told last Thursday at my sonogram that it was time to discontinue injecting the stimulation drugs and "trigger" ovulation. I wasn't expecting to be at that point until next week. We were fast approaching the next big step: egg retrieval.shot in the bum
Photo by Stephanie Dennis

I had developed seven follicles, which my doc called "a satisfactory number." I tried to fight the feeling that I had just received a C grade on my follicle test. They hope to get 6 to 10. Dang follicles! My doc reminded me "it only takes one egg." It's amazing how even the smallest communication can affect my state of mind. There is such a balancing act going on in my head. I am spinning plates of hope and excitement, but also plates of fear and holy crap, too.

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Getting Pregnant -- Let the IVF Injections Begin

Posted by Stephanie Dennis
on Apr 7, 2010 at 3:13 PM

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After a week of eyeballing the pile of drugs on my kitchen counter, it was finally time to roll up my sleeves and roll down my waistband. Injection day had arrived. I was trying not to be nervous but was definitely feeling overwhelmed. We're talking needles and drugs here. I couldn't goof it up. It didn't help that my lab partner/husband was out of town. I realized I needed to call for back up.

My friends Kristine and Adrienne came to the rescue. They are the kind of gals that know how to tackle a challenge. I had devoted time that day to review the process and prep all my supplies. I would be mixing two different drugs, creating a cocktail that would be injected into my tummy. The mixing part had me a bit flustered. One syringe for this, another for that. Drawing needles vs. injecting needles. And then there was the dreaded air bubble!

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Me, the IVF Drug Junkie -- Getting Pregnant

Posted by Stephanie Dennis
on Mar 31, 2010 at 4:23 PM

IVF Drugs

With my injection start date fast approaching, it was time for us to order our drugs. Now, this isn't the kind of prescription you get filled at your corner drug store and bring home in a paper bag along with the latest issue of In Style magazine and a bottle of nail polish. These drugs come from special pharmacies and must be FedEx'd to you.

When we received ours and popped open the box, we found a lengthy packing list (22 items), which my husband insisted we use to check off all the contents.

He had a point. Not only did this box of fertility drugs cost us more than our vacation to Hawaii last summer (and we thought that was a splurge), we didn't want to discover we were missing a key player mid-game.

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