A glimpse into my week.If I had to sum up just how nuts this past week has been for me in one word, I'd probably choose something along the lines of "insane" or "absolute hell." Ok, so that last one is actually two words, but who's counting.
My son has been sick -- really sick. Like the sickest I've ever seen him in all of his 6 years on this earth. And while being at home with a sick kid is never easy, being at home with a sick kid while still trying to work full-time from home is nothing short of ridiculously HARD.
And while I've done my very best to take good care of him and comfort him in any way I can -- I'll be the first to admit that I've had several moments where I've been frustrated and felt like I just couldn't take it anymore.
Between listening to endless bouts of coughing, running back and forth to the bathroom every ten minutes, and in the interim, cleaning up puke when he hasn't made it to the bathroom somewhere during those ten minutes, administering medicine, trying to fill requests for DVD changes and more saltine crackers and Gatorade, picking up the remnants of what is left of my house, finishing my work for the day, and possibly squeezing in a shower -- let's just say I've been a little more than overwhelmed.
And because of that, I've definitely said some things to my son that I regret. Scratch that -- I've said some things that make me feel like a really shitty mom. And none of these things were said because I don't care or because I'm missing a sensitivity chip or anything like that -- I'm simply at my wits end. In a nutshell -- I've HAD it.
But I'm hoping some of you will read this list of not-so-nice things I've said to my little guy and identify with it -- and maybe admit that you've said similar things on your more trying days as a parent as well.
"Stop that! You're gonna make me nuts!"
"Please don't do this to me. PLEASE."
"UGH. This is the LAST thing I need right now."
"I really don't have time for this."
"I'm doing the best I can. Give me a break, already!"
"I'm sorry. I can't read to you right now ... Mommy HAS to WORK!"
"Can you please turn that down? I can't concentrate!"
"Don't talk to me that way! Who has been here taking care of you all week?"
"I can't take it anymore. I can't do this anymore. ENOUGH, already."
"I've HAD it. I've HAD it. I've HAAAAAADDDDDD it."
OMG. Typing out those statements makes me feel like an even bigger failure as a mom. (I suck. Big time.) Go ahead and judge me if you must -- I definitely deserve it. For the record, I love my kid more than anything on the face of this earth -- but I'm only human. Everyone has their breaking point, I guess.
(I promise I'll do better the next time he gets sick. Sniff. Sniff.)
Have you ever said any of these things to your kids?
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