Dad Shares Raw Confession About Attempting Suicide Before His Son Was Born

Caolan Doherty with son
Caolan Doherty/Facebook

No matter how many filters and #blessed hashtags we use to make our life look perfect, many of us are hurting behind closed doors. And no matter how taboo society tries to make things like depression and other medical illness, we're so thankful for people like Caolan Doherty who aren't afraid to go there. This Irish dad just opened up about his failed suicide attempt and how it felt to discover he was going to be a dad just a few days later.


"A year ago tonight at around 2am I tried to kill myself. I had enough after struggling year after year with the black fog that is depression," Doherty writes in his brutally honest Facebook post shared on July 12. "Thankfully I was unsuccessful."

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After revealing one of the lowest moments in this life, Doherty says he and his girlfriend found out they were going to be parents just 15 days after his suicide attempt. The revelation was life-changing -- and life-saving -- in every way.

Now, Doherty is speaking out about how far he has come and how much his life has new meaning, thanks to his now-5-month-old son.

Caolán Doherty with son
Caolan Doherty/Facebook

"If I had been successful in taking my life then basically I would be airbrushed out of this photo, I wouldn't exist," the dad reflects in his post. "I would have missed out on the best thing that has ever happened to me. That absolutely terrifies me to think about."

Since he shared his post, Doherty's intimate Facebook message has been met with so much warmth and kind words that only prove how much we need a sense of community when it comes to talking about suicide and depression.

"You are a brave man to speak out," one Facebook commenter writes on the dad's post. "Enjoy every second with your beautiful son. You have plenty of stories to tell him."

"Keep believing, keep thinking positive thoughts, and smile and the world will smile with you," writes another.

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An estimated 121 people in the US commit suicide every day, making it the tenth leading cause of death in America and something that affects so many.

Doherty's story is truly bittersweet and raw, and it reiterates the importance of speaking out about mental health issues and asking for help when we need it. Doherty says he wants others struggling with depression to stay hopeful so they can move from their current darkness to the light at the end of the tunnel.

"While I'm not going to lie there has been dark days since and I'll always have to face this illness on a daily basis, it's worth facing," the dad writes in his Facebook post, "it's worth dealing with & most importantly it's worth talking about. That's what's kept me alive I think, talking to people I care about & that care about me."

If you or someone you know has expressed suicidal thoughts, please let them know they are not alone. Text START to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741, or visit the Suicide Prevention Resource Center at 

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