5-Month-Old Baby's Tragic Death Makes Me Wonder About Co-Sleeping

newborn feetA 5-month-old baby tragically died on New Year's Day, and according to police, the baby was sleeping in between its parents when the awful incident happened. The actual cause of the baby's death is still uncertain, but still -- it can't help but get you thinking about co-sleeping. Personally? It freaks me out.

In theory, I love the idea of co-sleeping. It seems so sweet, and cozy, and nice, but it just wasn't anything I could ever do. When my daughter was a newborn, I attached the co-sleeper to my bed, and it was convenient, but truth be told, even then I was a little nervous that I'd accidentally fling my blanket over her little body or something. And on one occasion, when I was nursing, I brought her into bed with me and was feeding her in the side-lying position. I woke up -- yes, woke up -- and realized that the sheet was creeping up over her head. In reality I had probably only dozed for a few minutes, and it wasn't like the blanket was completely over her head or anything, but it freaked me out. So much so that I never nursed in that position at night again.

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Right now, my daughter technically could come into bed with my husband and me. She'd be fine. She's 8 months old, and is bigger, and is impossible to lose in the sheets. But she has no interest. I've tried to nap with her in bed, and yeah, no dice. She just moves and squirms, and basically tries to leap off the bed. The girl likes to move. And she seriously loves her crib. It's pretty much the only place she'll get a good rest. And she also likes complete silence, thankyouverymuch.

If, when she's a bit bigger, she wants to get in bed with me, that's fine. I wouldn't turn her away. And I'd love to snuggle her at night. But it'd be different then. There wouldn't be any worry of anything bad happening to her. I wouldn't have to sleep (or not sleep) with one eye open, keeping a careful watch.

I know it works for some, and that's great, but when they're tiny babies, co-sleeping is just not for me.

Did/Do you co-sleep?

 

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