7 Things I Want to Change About Myself Now That I Have a Baby

babyThis past Sunday on Keeping Up With the Kardashians, Kourtney -- actually, my favorite of the bunch -- called her mother, Kris Jenner, a whore. I'll say it again: Kourtney Kardashian called her mother a whore.

I don't claim to have always been the most respectful of daughters to my mother, but dude. I would have never, ever called her a whore or anything close to it. And now that I have a child of my own, were my mother still alive, I would have gone out of my way to be kind to her -- not just because I now "get it," but because I want to set a good example for my daughter. Calling the person who gave birth to me a "whore" is not a good example. It sounds corny, but being a mom has made me want to be a better person. It's made me want to make changes -- or at least try -- to all the crappy habits I've picked up over the years.

Here are 7 things I want to change about myself now that I have a child.

I want to stop cursing so much. When I was pregnant, my husband and I would talk about this all the time. He'd say, "F**k!" And I'd say, "Hey, we really should try to curtail the swearing in preparation for our kid!" And vice-versa. We're yet to stop.

I want to stop talking smack. Perhaps one of the world's ugliest traits, being a person who talks s**t is definitely not something I want to pass on to my daughter. I want her to be soft and sweet and always see the best in people. Also, I don't want to influence her opinions of people. If I have an argument with my sister, I need to just keep my mouth shut around my daughter.

I want to stop complaining. I'm a complainer. I can't help it. Well, I guess I can, but it's hard. Sometimes, in crappy situations, my knee-jerk reaction is to just complain. To groan. To let out long, exaggerated sighs as if they're going to solve whatever's wrong. I've learned over the years that they don't.

I want to have grace under fire. When the going gets rough, I have a tendency to freak the f**k out. I do not always remain calm. And it's weird, it only seems to be with the little things. Just like complaining, worrying doesn't solve anything. Anxiety kind of is a pointless emotion. One I hope my daughter doesn't feel too often.

I want to be more confident in my decisions. I have a tendency to second guess myself -- again, usually with the small things. I want my girl to grow up to be secure in the choices she makes. And I want her to know that if they don't work out -- which they won't all the time -- it's okay.

I want to stop watching crap TV. It's definitely within the realm of possibility that I would cease to exist if Bravo were ever taken away from me. That's a really ugly trait.

What do you want to change about yourself for your kids? What did you change about yourself for the sake of your kids?


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